Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Lewis Nails It (as usual)

During my afternoon "meditations,"—which I at least attempt quite regularly now—I have found out ludicrous and terrible things about my own character. Sitting by, watching the rising thoughts to break their necks as they pop up, one learns to know the sort of thoughts that do come.

And, will you believe it, one out of every three is the thought of self-admiration: when everything else fails, having had its neck broken, up comes the thought "what an admirable fellow I am to have broken their necks!" I catch myself posturing before the mirror, so to speak, all day long. I pretend I am carefully thinking out what to say to the next pupil (for his good, of course) and then suddenly realize I am really thinking how frightfully clever I'm going to be and how he will admire me...

And then when you force yourself to stop it, you admire yourself for doing that. It is like fighting the hydra... There seems to be no end to it. Depth under depths of self-love and self-admiration.
(quoted in The Narnian by Alan Jacobs, 133)

And then Piper nails it some more (as usual)

Humility senses that humility is a gift beyond our reach. If humility is the product of reaching, then we will instinctively feel proud about our successful reach. Humility is the gift that receives all things as gift. It is the fruit not of our achievement but of the Holy Spirit (Galatians 5:22). It is the fruit of the gospel—knowing and feeling that we are desperate sinners and that Christ is a great and undeserved Savior.

Humility is the one grace in all our graces that, if we gaze on it, becomes something else. It flourishes when the gaze is elsewhere—on the greatness of the grace of God in Christ.

(HT: Desiring God blog)


chris mitch travis cana said...

this is totally awesome. and totally convicting. i LOVE IT! Something i struggle with and get consumed by and want to perfect..and the beauty of that..i will never perfect it. It will be perfected in me..but no, not here.

i pray this daily..
and it's rough, man...and then the funniest part..when you start seeing God working in that prayer..and you start going "wait wait wait wait..well, THAT's not what i meant!!!"

*when i start to feel forgotten about, and then remember i've been praying this...whoops!

Lis said...

Thank you!!!

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